My heart is still hurting for what has happened in Newtown. I cannot imagine what they are going through. Our thoughts and prayers goes out to every one there.
I was at work Friday morning and didn’t hear about the shooting until about 1PM. Every single time you hear about a school shooting it scares the hell out of you. I always prayed for those families. But this time it was a bit different. This time I am one of those parents with a child in pre-school. Buggy turned three yesterday and we just celebrated her birthday on Sunday.
When I left work I went to the school and picked up my baby early. I needed to hold my baby girl. Although I was being completely “normal” things seemed different with Buggy. She was very clingy and just wanted to be held. She was her happy self but the rest of the weekend she didn’t want to leave my side, wanted to be held and kept telling me that she needed a hug. This went on all weekend. Tuesday morning I was getting her ready to go to school and she absolutely refused. I don’t usually tell her that we are going to school but that we are going to go play with her friends and mention her teachers and she’s usually fine but not that morning. Buggy absolutely refused to leave the house. I tried all my bribes and nothing worked. I even had to drag her kicking and screaming across the street to go feed our neighbors cat. She’s never said no to an animal. I kept her home from school that day and after lots of cuddles and hugs I finally got her to go out and run some errands with me.
I know that she doesn’t understand what happened on that terrible Friday in Newtown and it’s almost like she totally understands. I honestly don’t know what has caused the change. I brought her to school today and it was really tough leaving her. Usually I can sneak out and she is fine. Today I stood outside her classroom and heard her screaming “I want mama”, “I want to go with mama”. It was painful but I need to stick to the routine. I am hoping tomorrow will be better.
Did your kids understand what happened in Newtown? Did you see any changes in their behavior?
Irene
I think kids have a way of hearing what our souls are saying. Kids feel things even when we think they are completely oblivious. Our little ones are about the same age and she has a hard time going back to school. I cried that day and was so sad and still am..But I am trying to keep myself happy around her. Their has been allot of cuddling and chocolate milk at this house.....
ReplyDeleteMy son is in kindergarten, and I haven't discussed it with him, but we did send a prayer up for 'the school that needed them' that night before he went to bed. I'm telling you what though, I couldn't wait for school to get out that day to have him next to me.
ReplyDeleteI hope your little one goes back to routine for you soon, it IS hard if they cry when you leave them.
Kids pick up on your energy very easily. I'm sure that even if they are too little to understand exactly what happened, they know when we're sad or down. I have been giving my baby girl extra snuggles ever since. I know it's going to be hard to go back to school in January!
ReplyDeleteMy kids are older 7 & 10, so they understand, and yes there is a slight change--I always say a blessing over then beofre school, my 10 year old will roll her eyes, but after Friday SHE REMINDED me to say it over them !
ReplyDeleteIt is possible that the energy is just different. There are lots of things that children understand on a different level. My boys rarely leaave me as I homeschool so there hasn't been a big change for us
ReplyDeleteI agree with the previous comment that kids can pick up on your energy. It's hard too when they're little and can't process that kind of thing, or even be able to describe fully what they're feeling. My kids are 6 and 3 and we haven't discussed this with them. Especially my 6 year old. His situation is just way too similar to the kids that were shot, and I don't want to freak him out. So far I think he's completely unaware of things and hasn't said anything or acted differently
ReplyDeleteIt really is amazing on what they can pick up on-regardless of how little they are
ReplyDeleteIt is so scary this world we live in and it breaks my heart that the children see so much ugliness in this world.
ReplyDeleteThat was really nice of your daughter to remind you of that. It says a lot.
ReplyDeleteI'm sure your little is enjoying the extra hugs. My daughter is still being very clingy but I don't mind at all. I love all the hugs and snuggles
ReplyDeleteIt's such a tough feeling. Buggy is still a bit clingy but I really don't mind
ReplyDeleteIt really is amazing how they pick up on things. They are amazing little people
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